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Santiago 911 Ksenija Pavlovic
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Trusting one to trust oneself is an arduous, patient task.

Trusting one to trust oneself is an arduous, patient task.

“You have to trust yourself”, I was told a while ago. This was a new concept for me, one I did not really give too much thought. At all. My career has been dedicated to acting in an advisory capacity for governments, media and philanthropic industries. I have been paid decent money to state what I see ahead. I guess, intellectually, I trusted my opinion, my gut feeling, my scholarly knowledge. Olivia Pope, but without the President. B613. Ops. Ooops. Goop. Black has always been the prettiest color.

I woke up in the future, the one I worked for. The one I lived for. The one I invested in: through good and bad, through highs and lows, tribulations and vivid seas. It was exactly the way I envisioned it , but without me. On the gilded pillars of what I have built, another name was stamped in the hallway. Tenants to what I owned. How’s that for the experience?

Suddenly, the labor rights made sense to me, Bernie Sander’s New Politique. Integrity was my name, with no hidden details, with no omitted small letters which were everything but an invisible print. The American inscription in the humid suburban South. Big catch in the small sea of administrative inventory. I was told once that I had to have a doctoral degree.

Trust in smoking mirrors. Bruises of too many ill turns. The path rather traveled. I was not talking euphemism.

The Countess of Journalism called and asked if I wanted to make headlines. What God would it cater? Everyone has one. His was busy that day.

I found myself on the streets of Santiago. Wake up calls can linger after one wakes. The future was awake. Explosion of truth was everywhere. BadenBaden. The 911 squad was still counting casualties.

Backtracking. Sidetracking. Backsliding. The future has arrived already. Trusting myself? Trusting myself even at times when I was told that it was nothing but my creative competence? Trusting myself this past October when at loud I was reading the letters and was assured that they were all innocent?

I can’t remember to spell his name.



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Ksenija Pavlovic

Ksenija Pavlovic

Ksenija Pavlovic is the Founder and Editor-in-Chief of the Pavlovic Today, The Chief White House Correspondent.

Pavlovic was a Teaching Fellow and Doctoral Fellow in the Political Science department at Yale University, Lead Instructor in International Affairs and Security and Politics Law and Economics programs at Yale Global Scholars, Head Writing Fellow at the Yale Graduate Writing Center, Fellow of the “Research and Travel Award in Grand Strategy” from International Security Studies (ISS) at Yale University, Fellow of the Roger Hertog Global Strategy Initiative in Religious Violence at Columbia University, a Doctoral candidate in Political Conflict and Peace Building Processes at Complutense University in Madrid, Fellow of the OSI Global Supplementary Grant Program, and a Visiting Doctoral Fellow at the Juan March Institute. She holds an M.Sc. in European Politics from the London School of Economics, an M.A. in American Politics, and a B.A. in Journalism and Communication from the University of Belgrade. She speaks English, Serbian, Croatian, and Spanish.

Pavlovic has interviewed exclusively pivotal figures including Arianna Huffington, Sir Richard Branson, President of the World Bank Jim Yong Kim, Karlie Kloss, filmmaker and founder of the Webby awards Tiffany Shlain, film director Lars von Trier, actors Adam Brody, Monica Bellucci, fashion designers Adolfo Dominguez, Tommy Hilfiger and Donna Karan, publisher and former presidential candidate Steve Forbes; the world No.1 tennis player Novak Djokovic; novelist Martin Amis, as well as big names in the governmental arena such as the former President of Serbia Boris Tadic, the leading members of the first democratic Serbian government and Milorad Dodik, President of the Serbian entity of BIH. Moreover, Ms. Pavlovic has exclusively covered the Cannes Film Festival, Venice Film Festival, Sarajevo Film Festival, London Film Festival, Madrid Fashion Week, The Madrid Open, and a range of other international benefit and political events.


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